A Little Bit of This...A Little Bit of That

So there really has only been two things that have occupied my time lately. The job search and fertility stuff.

I was really surprised that it took me as long as it did to find a job. I guess it's a sign of the times. The first job I got was working as a cage cashier at the local casino (graveyard shift). At this point, I didn't care what it was, I just wanted a job. I'm not going to go into detail, but let's just say it wasn't a good fit and I quit.

The next one I got was as a server at a pizza place with the initials of PH. That one was okay and I would've stayed had I not been offered my next two jobs. I was there for such a short amount of time that I never got to serve on my own.

Fast forward through all the boring details and I now have two part-time/temporary jobs: one at the university here and the other at a university in Asheville. I also took a midnight to 7:30am donut making job, but I quit that one after I realized it wasn't going to be what I was hoping.

I have something lined up for the fall, so I'm okay with having temporary positions for the moment. I'll let you know what happens with that when that time comes.

As far as the fertility stuff goes, we decided to do one more IUI. This will be our 3rd and the doctor recommends 3 or 4 before you move on to IVF. Just to give you an idea of the expense, here's what we've wracked up:

• $75 copay (2)
• $75 letrozole (causes more mature eggs to develop; interestingly, also used to treat breast cancer)
• $300 gonal-f injection (stimulates the development of follicles and eggs)
• $450 intrauterine insemination
• TOTAL: $975

The day of my cycle day 12 ultrasound, I had a positive ovulation test. Because it was positive, I technically didn't have to have an ultrasound, but I decided to anyway just to see how many mature follicles I had. Unfortunately, all of the follicles in my left ovary were immature, but I had 3 - possibly 4 - mature ones in my right. The nurse couldn't get a good view of the 4th one to measure it. The maturity is measured by how big the follicles appear in the ultrasound. So TECHNICALLY I could be pregnant with quads, but the odds are very very slim. I mean, I've had two other IUIs and didn't get pregnant so I'm not that concerned. 

I still have one more visit to the doc to get my progesterone level tested this Tuesday. And actually, this is pretty cheap compared to what we paid in Kansas City. Also pretty cheap compared to IVF. At any rate, I take a pregnancy test Tuesday after this and if it's negative, we'll need to look over the IVF packet the doctor sent home with me and make a decision.

Sometimes I get annoyed that we're going through this, but then I realized there are worse things. Like this woman who did 26 IUIs. 

Love

I love my husband. For many different reasons, but the first one that comes to mind right now is...

...because every once in a while, out of the blue, he'll say, "You need to update your blog."

Me: *sigh* I know...

I'm always surprised he actually cares enough to check it. True love, folks. True love.

I do have a lot of write about though. I'll put it on my list to do this weekend.

Happy Earth Day!

When we moved to Kansas City last August, I instantly realized that I had taken western North Carolina for granted. Since moving back, I've made more of an effort to get out and enjoy this beautiful part of the country I'm so blessed to live in.

The weekend after we put Athena to sleep, we went to Joyce Kilmer Memorial Forest and hiked the trail there. It's an easy two loops totaling 2 miles. From the USDA Forest Service site: This forest is one of the Nation’s most impressive remnants of old-growth forest. The forest contains magnificent examples of more than 100 tree species, many over 400-years-old, and some more than 20 feet in circumference and 100 feet tall.  

There are some other trails that branch off of the main trail, but we decided to go back and do those once the trees leaf out. Oh! I almost forgot! There are all these warnings posted..."This is an old-growth forest. Beware of falling limbs and trees." This is NO JOKE. We watched a tree fall not even 15 minutes into our hike. If our hearts weren't already pumping from the hike, they were then!

Canopy shot - trees just starting to leaf out

My boys

Q: Why did the Fungi leave the party? A: There wasn't mushroom. 

Trillium grandiflorum

It's the Little Things

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Athena: January 31, 2003 - April 7, 2014

We had to put my sweet Thena girl to sleep on Monday. It might possibly be the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

She was diagnosed with hip dysplasia when she was three and had been on pain medication since that time. Over time she had vertebrae fuse and arthritis set in. When we took her to the pain veterinarian in North Carolina last summer, she pointed out that she couldn't move her elbows anymore. Her right knee was so bowed out and thick that the veterinarian in Missouri thought she might have cancer. So she did an x-ray and thankfully it wasn't cancer, but the difference between her good knee, good hip, and bad knee, and bad hip was insane.

It just makes me realize even more what heart she had; to deal with all of that and still be this happy go lucky dog.

Last weekend was finally the point at which I said, 'She's miserable. We're miserable. I think we need to do this soon.' She would start crying because she couldn't get up to get more comfortable and we'd have to pick her up so she could readjust herself. Bad nights were ones where we'd have to get up 5-6+ times. Sometimes she would growl...not sure if that was because she hurt or we weren't doing what she wanted us to do. At any rate, we called the vet on Monday and scheduled the euthanasia for 9:45am. She could still walk and was bright eyed and 'happy' so I had Chris ask if they could exam her first to make sure we were (or weren't) doing the right thing.

When the vet saw her and I saw the look on the vet's face, I knew immediately that we were going to do it. The vet hadn't seen her in over a year and could see how bad she had gotten. She said, 'Nothing lines up with anything. You can tell she's in pain. It's past time.' So yeah, she got a tranquilizer first and then the phenobarbital to put her to sleep. We decided to do an individual cremation with her ashes returned to us. I plan to scatter them at some point, but only when I know without a doubt that I'm ready. Incidentally, the vet's office just called and said her ashes are here. Today has been an emotional day, so I think I'll wait to pick them up.

I can't even begin to describe what Athena meant to me/us. I'm choosing to believe that I'll be reunited with her one day. Thankfully I have lots of photos and many wonderful memories. :)

Here are some videos (I don't know how to edit them, so you get them in all their uncut glory!):

Athena on her 11th birthday this past January. It didn't occur to me that the cake was too far from her...I felt really bad about that when I watched the video back! 



Here she is enjoying the beach. Fun times!

Pizza Lovers Unite!

Friday is pizza night at our house and last Friday was a major success. So much so that I had to share the recipes with you all.

First, the crust. I've made a lot of crusts and this one is my favorite. I'm taping this recipe to the fridge and making it for every pizza from now on. Word of warning though, it takes a while. It suggests you let the sponge sit for 2 1/2 hours and then have the dough rise another hour. That said, I didn't know that before I started and was on a time crunch, so I had the sponge sit for 30 minutes. Seemed fine. I also didn't pre-bake my crust. You can find the recipe at Pretty/Hungry or pin it below.

Now. The pizza. Jalapeno popper pizza. Soooooo good. I didn't use the pepper jack cheese since I had some leftover mozzarella. You can find the recipe at Damn Delicious or pin it below.