I don't have a job. Well, I'm a biology tutor for Student Support Services on campus, but I only get paid based on the time I tutor. So if there's no students in need of tutoring, I don't get paid!
I've applied for a bunch of different jobs to no avail. Are people not hiring because of "the economy"? Are people afraid to hire me because I'm over-qualified? Is there something in my resume that says, "Don't hire this person"?
I had an interview at USFWS in Asheville a while back and didn't get hired.
I thought for sure (HR called me) I would get a temporary job paying $12/hr (woo!) as the Associate Dean of the Business School's "secretary". I don't know why, but that fell through...no call back.
It boggles my mind because I've never not been hired. All of the people I have interviewed for have hired me. What's going on??
The funny thing is that for once in my life, I actually want to work. I want to wake up at 6:30 to be in the office at 8:00 and then leave to drive back to my wonderful home at 5:00. Perhaps it's because I don't want to do what I really need to do. Research.
Here I am, blogging at a table in the lab with my pressed plants sitting over my shoulder. I've been given by my advisor an identification deadline of this Friday. They get bigger and bigger and loom over me as I try to ignore their silent whispers of, "Nicole, you need to identify us. We're tired of being "unknowns"...give us names, make us whole again!"
Whatever, I'd rather listen to podcasts while blogging about boring life things. The other thing that gets me is why the heck do I prolong my research?? Why do I sit here doing everything BUT my research when getting it done will set me free?? That's the answer to my problem. Do it. Get it done. Don't worry about it any longer. I know that's the answer, I want to get it done, so why can't I?
Stupid Master's degree.
Do what you gotta do so you can do what you want to do. That was my grad school mantra. Just get it over with!
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There's advice that is often given to us looney actors, and I think it could apply here, for what it's worth. Your thesis IS your job. You get up and get to work at 9. You break for lunch. You use your computer as if your boss might walk up any minute. (No Facebook!) You go home at 5. Your salary? The money you save in tuition by getting done. Remember the best thesis is a finished thesis. You can do it! You've always been a hard worker in school, you know how it's done. Plus, you're so good at what you do!
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