Learning to let go

I'm still having the wedding dreams. I had one Saturday night about my dress and I had one yesterday (during my nap to sleep off my vertigo) that I got pregnant and couldn't fit into my dress. Eek!

I woke up at about 4:15 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Why? Because all things wedding were flowing through my head. The biggest thing on my mind right now is that the barn where we're having the reception won't be big enough. Well, I think it's big enough, it's just laid out funny. It's a converted stable, so there's a whole middle section that I believe was used to house the horses. So it's like a bunch of little rooms in the middle of the barn. I'm just afraid it cuts off the room and it'll be hard for people to move around or see the dancing or cutting of the cake etc. Also, Chris thinks the area for the dancing is large enough while I'm not so sure. I understand it's out of my hands, but I want the area conducive to dancing so that lots of people dance. If it's too small, people aren't going to be comfortable dancing. But again, it's out of my hands...if people don't want to dance, they're not going to dance, no matter how big the space is.

That being said, I think the greatest piece of wedding advice I've gotten so far has been from my cousin's wife (they got married over the summer). Don't drive yourself crazy with the details, everything works out in the end and it's not the food or the music or the decorations that matter, it's that you're beginning your life together with your best friend and love of your life. Enjoy it and don't fret over the small things that 5 years from now you won't remember anyway.

I constantly have to remind myself of that. When I find I'm going that route I consciously have to reel myself back in and remember the big picture.